Chapter One
London, February 1848
Lydia has been missing for eight days, and I’m beginning to fear that our parents are going to wake up in the morning and find my bed empty too.
A noise in the dark alley to my left makes me jump, but it’s just a rat tearing through a pile of rubbish.
I’ve shivered my way through the city for miles, ignoring hecklers and stepping over half-dead beggars. Usually, my parents say to pay them no mind, that they’ve had the same opportunity to bargain with the queen as the rest of us, but they’re harder to ignore tonight.
My freedom is usually limited to turns around the park arm in arm with Mama or safely ensconced within the velvet walls of our family’s carriage.
What I lack in experience I make up for in confidence. That confidence feels a lot flimsier now, lost, and cold down to my bones.
I thought it would be safer to stick to the main roads rather than risk traipsing through the ink dark of Hyde Park alone, but one wrong turn down a serpentine side street has me hopelessly turned around. Even the flicker of the gas lamps is weak. The biting February air is thick with coal dust, blotting out what little light the flames throw off. I pull back the hood of my cloak and tip my head to the sky in an attempt to get my bearings. Cassiopeia should be north, but the twinkle of the stars is too dim to be sure. An errant tear flows out of the corner of my eye and into the hollow of my ear.
I’ve been searching Lydia’s room for days, praying fruitlessly for a clue about her sudden disappearance. It’s as if she vanished into nothing, but I refuse to accept that.
Tonight, after Mama, Papa, and our skeleton crew of staff had gone to bed, I pulled on my cloak, wrapped myself in Papa’s thickest scarf, and took off into the night.
Maybe I was being brave, like the knights in the stories Lydia and I read
as little girls, noble and driven by love, or maybe I just wanted to feel something other than the maddening terror I’ve felt since my sister disappeared.
The police say she’s either eloped or dead, but I don’t believe them.
She’d have told me if she planned to elope, and I’d be able to feel it if she were dead. There’s no possible universe in which my sister’s heart stops beating and I keep on living, unaltered.
My breath comes out in puffs of vapor as I cut down another alley. I sigh in relief as I finally recognize where I am.
The gates of Kensington Palace loom like a mouth in the near distance, fear that ourthe dark shadows of the Queen’s Guard beside them.
I thumb over the cool surface of the necklace sitting deep in the pocket of it’s just a ratmy cloak like a talisman. I’ll have to be clever, circle around Hyde Park again maybe, and sneak in the back way. I don’t need to get too near the palace, hecklers andonly to the trees surrounding it. My feet are numb in my boots, but I must pay them nokeep walking lest I look suspicious to the guards, now in sight. queen as theWhen Lydia and I were small and our family still owned the country house in Oakham, we spent our summers in the woods, catching frogs or m in arm withmaking little houses out of leaves for the ducklings. Our legs scraped to ly’s carriage.ribbons, twigs in our wild hair, we’d only come inside once the moon rose nfidence feelsand the bats emerged. We’d enter through the kitchen to avoid getting scolded by Mama, and there we’d be attended to by a particularly indulgent her than riskold cook named Mrs. Osbourne. Mrs. Osbourne was the oldest person I’d g turn down aever known, and as she bandaged our legs and snuck us lemon ices, she’d tell flicker of theus stories. We loved the ones about the Others best of all. dust, blottingShe read to us from an old book that was wrapped in fraying sage-green of my cloakfabric and dented at the corners. I was particularly taken by the concept of a s. Cassiopeiafaerie door. As the stories went, the Others could be compelled to open the re. An errantdoor between our worlds, usually hidden in gnarled old trees, for clever humans who left objects of great significance at their thresholds. sly for a clueI begged Lydia to try it with me. We found a squat ironwood tree, and in othing, but Ithe divot of its roots we left our matching baby necklaces, one strung with a small pearl L charm and the other with a matching I. They were too short to had gone tofit around our big-girl necks, but they still hung on the posts of our beds. I arf, and tookwas giddy with anticipation for the rest of the day, peeking through windows, desperate for a glimpse of one of Them. ia and I readThe next morning, Lydia and I ran across the dew-damp lawn and dug
anted to feelour chubby little hands into the dirt at the base of the tree. The necklaces had vanished. I jumped and hollered with joy, so loud that my mother stompede my sister out into the garden and demanded to know why I was giving her a headache.
I told her everything. Without another word, she marched to the kitchens andbelieve them. made Mrs. Osbourne burn her faerie book. I was only six then, and I didn’tfeel it if she understand that owning something like this was illegal. I wailed for days.s heart stops A year later, I found Lydia’s necklace shoved in the back of her wardrobe. Two years older than me, she placed her hands on her hips andr alley. I sigh told me I had to leave babyish things like magic behind. It was the first of her three great betrayals.near distance, She sauntered out of the room before I could ask her why we never did find the second of the matching necklaces—or if she also saw the silhouettethe pocket of of the man by the trees that night.de Park again An icy wind whips down the street, sending a swirl of dead leavesar the palace, scattering. My blond curls whip around my face, and I pull the cloak tighters, but I must around my neck.
The stories from Mrs. Osbourne’s books were of an England wherecountry Others ran wild. Queen Mor would have us believe that she and her son arehing frogs or the only ones of their kind who live here now, but they came fromgs scraped to somewhere, and even locked doors can be opened again. I can’t get up northhe moon rose to our old home in Oakham, nor to the memorial battlefield from the Battle ofavoid getting Barnet, but if a door exists in London, wouldn’t it be in the trees surroundingrly indulgent the queen’s residence? I can’t not try.st person I’d I double back toward the public entrance of the park, to where the bargainces, she’d tell lines form on Sundays. The trees stand like specters in the dark, indistinguishable from one another. There’s nothing remarkable about any ofg sage-green them, I’m just going to have to choose at random. I clutch the necklace in myconcept of a pocket.d to open the A shadow moves in the dark. “Who’s there?” shouts one of the Queen’ss, for clever Guard.
I curse under my breath, drop my sister’s necklace at the base of thed tree, and in nearest tree, and run.strung with a I sprint down the path and across the wide lawns, then make a sharp left,e too short to turning back onto the street and off palace grounds.f our beds. I From out of the silence comes the sudden clatter of wheels pitching overugh windows, cobblestones.
I jump back, hoping to hide in the shadows, but I don’t see the loose stoneawn and dug
necklaces haduntil it is too late. ther stompedMy boot catches on the edge of it, and I trip and fall, my temple colliding r a headache.with the curb. My body splays out like a rag doll in the dirt. kitchens andAt first there is the blinding, sharp sting of pain, and then there is nothing and I didn’tbut darkness.
back of herI blink back to consciousness, unsure of how long I’ve been under, to find a her hips andshadowy figure sitting beside me in a carriage. he first of her“I’ve got a knife,” I whisper, terrified. I don’t mention that it’s a kitchen knife shoved in my boot, too dull to cut through anything and too difficult to we never didreach now anyway. he silhouette“Are you going to stab me?”
“That depends.” dead leaves“On what?” cloak tighterMy vision obscures as something warm pours over my left eye. I reach up to wipe it, and my hand comes away sticky with blood. gland whereThe figure swears and shrugs off his coat. “Take this. You can stab me d her son arelater.” came fromHe presses his coat to my temple. It’s still warm with his body heat, and I get up northresist the urge to sigh in relief at even the smallest reprieve from the cold. the Battle of“Are you all right?” he asks. s surrounding“You hit me with your carriage,” I reply weakly.
“I didn’t hit you, you tripped.” e the bargain“I tripped to avoid getting trampled by your—” I pause to look around. n the dark,The carriage is massive, at least a six-seater, with thick velvet upholstery and about any ofpolished brass fixtures. “Behemoth,” I finish. cklace in my“I wasn’t the one skulking around in the dark.”
“I wasn’t skulking. I was lost.” the Queen’s“Where were you headed? Maybe I can help you?” The stranger taps on the window to the driver’s seat and it slides open. base of the“Where to, miss?” the driver asks gruffly.
Even I can admit when a mission has failed. “Belgrave Square,” I answer, e a sharp left,giving him my home address.
The horses whinny, and we’re off with a lurch. As we make a wide right pitching overturn onto a main thoroughfare, a beam of yellow lamplight streams in through the carriage window. e loose stoneThe boy brushes his unkempt hair from his forehead, and recognition hits
me like a blow. I’m dizzy from the trauma to my head, but that’s not why it mple collidingfeels as if the world has suddenly tilted.
Sitting opposite me, concern sketched across his fine features, is a face ere is nothingI’ve seen in portraits and across crowded concert halls my entire life. He looks younger tonight than any time I’ve seen him previously. He’s usually in stiff cravats with well-coifed hair. Tonight it falls in dark waves over his der, to find aforehead, partially obscuring his hazel eyes, but the high cheekbones, sharp jaw, and sullen mouth are the same. Prince Emmett. it’s a kitchen“It’s you.” I blink. oo difficult toA bemused smile crosses his face. “Who?”
“You’re Prince Emmett.”
“You must have hit your head rather hard,” he replies. There’s a crackle of fragility in the edge of his voice.
“I know who you are. There’s no point in hiding it.” ye. I reach upHe narrows his eyes at me. “We’ve met.” It isn’t a question.
We haven’t, not really, but I’ve seen him from a distance at enough can stab meevents to be certain—and then there was that thing with Lydia.
“Lady Benton.” I nod my head in some semblance of a bow, but he dy heat, and Isenses the sarcasm in the gesture and his mouth quirks up in a half smile.
“Second daughter of the Marquess of Townshend.”
“Aren’t you supposed to be missing?” Emmett asks. “I’ve heard the rumors.”
I shake my head. “No. I’m the other one. I was looking for my sister, look around.that’s why I was out.” I feel the sharp stab of failure as the carriage carries us pholstery andfarther from Kensington Palace. I’ve just tossed Lydia’s necklace into the dirt for nothing.
“Ahh, yes, the younger sister.” He gestures vaguely to my face. “The resemblance is uncanny. You’ve got the same eyes.” anger taps on“I’m surprised you remember her,” I answer tensely.
“You think she’s out there somewhere?” he asks, pointedly not addressing my remark. re,” I answer,“Yes. I can’t explain it, but I’d be able to feel it if she were gone.”
Emmett looks at me, unnervingly still. “Feel it?” a wide rightWe jolt as the carriage rounds another corner. ms in through“You wouldn’t understand.”
“I have a brother,” he says. “I might understand better than you think.” cognition hitsI’m surprised to hear him refer to Prince Bram as his brother.
’s not why itEmmett’s status as prince is still a lightning rod for gossip, nearly two decades after his birth. He’s the human son of Queen Moryen’s husband, res, is a facePrince Consort Edgar, and his first, human, wife, who died in childbirth. The ntire life. Hequeen legitimized Emmett on his eighth birthday, though whether it was a e’s usually infavor to his father, an act of love, or something else entirely, no one knows. ves over hisHis name is whispered in drawing rooms across town. A rake of a prince, sharpwhy can’t he be sweet like Bram? There are always new rumors about who he is spotted with at whatever social events he deigns to attend. There was the scullery maid scandal in Lord Tremaine’s rose garden last season. Only a month later, he was caught wrapped up in the curtains of Duke Cambere’s study with the family’s middle daughter. Just last week, I heard my mother e’s a cracklemutter something about a ballerina. And my face still burns with anger when I think about how he was with Lydia during her first season. I wasn’t there, but she told me all about it when she returned home in tears.
When he’s not sullying someone else’s reputation, he’s causing an uproar ce at enoughover his refusal to begin his studies at Oxford—or his hunting trips with his friends, other lords, and second sons that sound more like bacchanalia. bow, but heEmmett turns to me, the full force of his gaze hitting me for the first time. a half smile.I’ve never seen him about town without a surly frown on his face. But he doesn’t look anything like that now. His eyes are a peculiar shade of hazel, ve heard thelined with dark lashes and glinting with fire. This close, I can see the spray of soft freckles across his nose. I never recognized the refined, handsome face or my sister,behind the pouting. But it is handsome. He’s so handsome it nearly knocks age carries usthe breath from me. e into the dirtThe carriage clatters through the night, down the still streets of a sleeping London. I tilt my head against the back of the seat and wonder how I’m going y face. “Theto get the blood out of this dress without Mama or the maids finding out.
“What are you thinking about?” Emmett asks.
“Stabbing you,” I reply, eyes closed.
ointedly not“That’s not very polite.”
“Running me over wasn’t very polite.”
“Again, you tripped.”
There’s a sudden flood of heat, and I open my eyes to find Emmett crowded into my space, peering up at me intently. I’m still holding his coat against my bleeding head, and gingerly, he raises his fingers and peels away the edges of the wool. It’s gone sticky, half dried, and it pulls at my hair as he tugs it away.
p, nearly two“Ouch.” I resist the urge to jab him with my elbow. n’s husband,“Stop squirming. The bleeding has slowed,” he declares. “But you should hildbirth. Thekeep the pressure on it.” ther it was aWith the hand that isn’t holding the coat, I salute.
He tilts his head slightly, still staring at me. “You know, you’re really e of a prince,quite pretty.” about who heAn infuriating blush rises in my chest. “Are you trying to seduce me right here was thenow? I know your reputation, but I didn’t expect the nerve.” ason. Only a“My reputation?”
Cambere’s“Being seen with you would ruin me.” d my motherHis eyes narrow. “You don’t seem like the kind of girl to worry about h anger whenthings like that.” Men never do understand. The slow death of being cast out wasn’t there,of society is a fate few are strong enough to bear.
“You don’t know anything about the kind of girl I am.” ing an uproar“I know you snuck out in the middle of the night to search for your trips with hissister.”
The carriage slows. I pull back the curtain to see my family’s town house, the first time.the white limestone and soaring columns lit up with gas lamps. face. But heI tap on the window and ask the driver to drop me around the back. I ade of hazel,stand less of a chance of being caught if I go through the service entrance in e the spray ofthe basement. ndsome face“Thank you for your assistance,” I say as I take the driver’s hand and hop early knocksdown from the carriage.
Emmett leans out the door, a calling card clutched between his knuckles. of a sleepingHe reaches out to me. “Please. Can I see you again?”
ow I’m going“Absolutely not,” I reply.
“I beg of you, consider it.”
I take the card out of habit and am a few steps away, nearly to the back staircase, when Emmett’s voice calls from the darkness.
“You can keep the coat.”
I turn back to him. He’s enveloped in shadows, but his smirk is visible even from here. “No, thank you, I’ve got plenty of my own.” I chuck the coat find Emmettback in his direction, and it smacks him square in the chest. I’ve always been ding his coatrather proud of my throwing arm. d peels awayHe waits until I’m inside to pull away. my hair as heThe fireplace is cold, nothing like Mrs. Osbourne’s kitchen, where the bricks by the hearth were always warm. I’m not six years old anymore. There
is no one waiting to tend to my wounds, no big sister’s bed to crawl into. ut you shouldI climb the limewashed back staircase up to my second-floor bedroom like I’m a ghost haunting this house.
I peel out of my bloodstained dress and am pulling my arms through the you’re reallywarm flannel of my dressing gown when I hear a commotion down in the foyer. duce me rightSomeone is pounding on the door. For a minute, I freeze with terror, mortified at the thought that perhaps Prince Emmett has come back for me.
Then I hear footsteps. Someone shrieks.
I race out onto the landing just in time to see Lydia stumble into the worry aboutmarble hall, leaving a smear of muddy footprints in her wake. eing cast out
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I peel out of my bloodstained dress and am pulling my arms through the warm flannel of my dressing gown when I hear a commotion down in the foyer.
Someone is pounding on the door. For a minute, I freeze with terror, mortified at the thought that perhaps Prince Emmett has come back for me.
Then I hear footsteps. Someone shrieks.
I race out onto the landing just in time to see Lydia stumble into the marble hall, leaving a smear of muddy footprints in her wake.
